Oooh baby bang bang ;-)
Why did life have to be this way?
Shame
I couldn’t fit in my jeans properly today… I had to go out in public and I felt disgusting the whole time. I’d buy new jeans only I can’t handle seeing the double digits on the size tag.. How can I possibly get rid of all of this weight when I can’t even fit in clothes anymore!!!!!?! :-( I’ve heard about the ABC diet but I really wanted to be healthy this time, it’s not working.
FAT.
I’m so sick of looking at myself in the mirror and feeling like shit I can’t help but cry every time and I can’t handle that nothing fits me anymore :-( I’m sick of yoyo dieting, sick of being unhealthy,reducing myself to a physically unhealthy state but I can’t find another way. It’s like no matter what I do nothing will work. Nothing will take this weight off me and I am heading back towards my worst. I just want to lock myself away and cry away my fatness.
Home is where the heart is
Love
Why does it hurt so much?
What was everything to me, meant nothing to you.
Things change people leave but life doesn’t stop for anybody.
How could you let me go?
Love?
Love?
We’ve all felt it, been madly deeply in it, Hated it, wanted it.It’s the worst sickness, the best feeling, the one thing that really keeps life eventful.Who needs money when you have love?It’s a fulltime job that requires so much attention.Why is this? why is it that without this one sometimes heartbreaking life destroying emotion we are nothing? There is a point in every single persons life ( yes, that’s right men too) when we ask ourselves whether what we are feeling really is love.
Love is often compared to a drug. So it should be.
It’s an addiction, something craved once you get a hit and once you start you can’t stop. The doses are upped and the effects wear off. You need more and more just to recreate that same high you had the first time. This is where people struggle this is called the ” Honeymoon period” usually when a relationship begins. For the first month or two. Sometimes it does get harder as soon as sex is involved because sex always complicates things but that’s another story. People get comfortable, people get clingy. Some people survive the struggle. Some don’t. Love is something that requires a team effort, you can’t be playing both roles. Once that begins to become clear to you, it’s best to know that you are most likely doomed. Once a love dies is there a way to save it? Is it possible to rebuild the ruins of what’s left of the past?” If you love something, let it go. ” That’s what they say right?
Nothing is meant to be and never will be easy. A relationship requires so much attention and I admire those people that have made it to their 60th anniversary. There will be fights, days when you don’t see them, doubts. It’s all about is it really worth it? Is he or she really worth the pain, the heartache I feel? Sometimes it is better to bite your tongue, hang up the phone, walk away, sometimes it’s better/ safer to say goodbye. Time does heal all wounds, fate does have a funny way of making history repeat itself.
- Julia
